Life, as we know it.

What are the forces that control your mind? My thoughts – Just you.

Our mind is the single strongest and personal possession we have in our lives. What we are, our personality, our thoughts, our ideas, our living is controlled by our minds. That being said there always will exist different kinds of forces that influence your mind. Those that reinforce you, make you stronger and counter forces that will try to prove your existence as invalid. My life has, well, for the most part struggled with manoeuvring my way through the negative influences around me. And here is what I learned.

If you are unconventional, the conventional ways of this world will never convene with your mind. This has very well been established in the human world.

My mind works, round the clock, things I can comprehend and things I cannot. But I wouldn’t want to stop myself from keeping the machine running. Why should I when I have the power to explore every dimension of my brain, answer every question on my own, figure things our on my own, ponder over my own thoughts. And because we are human, we sometimes share these thoughts with people close to us, mostly out of excitement. [Enter] Negative forces.

How important are these forces? Well, my experience has been pretty engaging since all my life I have pretty much spent most of my time dealing with these forces. They are people who belong to me. My dearest people. Those who claimed to know me from the time I entered this world or those who have spent considerable amount of time with me and think they can own my decision making process.

But here’s the thing you need to know, they don’t know that you have evolved. Change is something that needs to be dealt with smartly. When we grow, we evolve, rapidly. We are no longer who we were. As I type this, I know, I was not who I was about even a year ago. So, if you have kept up with the changed you that is enough and more than required to live. Your pace of development will not be understood or approved by anybody and believe me, approval is the last thing you need.

There have been times when I have sat down to explain my thoughts to the people around me and they would react, ‘are you out of your mind?!’ or ‘this is not what I expected from you’ and I’ve heard worse! With time however, I realised that writing out long emails or letters to explain all that you cannot through a conversation will not help serve the purpose either. The greater purpose – you have to move on with your life, no matter what. Your closest people have developed an attachment to you which makes them advocate you or disapprove your ideas. Mostly out of concern.

If you have considered the pros and cons of moving on with your thoughts and ideas and you know the risks involved and you still want to go ahead, that is when you need push through these counter acting forces. You know what is best for you. Yes, as they say, you may fall, but you will rise. You may stagger but you will figure it out. Because you own your mind. And nothing will stop you from achieving your goal if you take control of your own mind.

This article has been a long overdue. What I just shared with you has been my struggle for the past 5 years. Like I said earlier, I have been dealing with the negative forces for the most part of my life. And not so long ago, I put down my feet and said ‘enough’. Of course, I had the withdrawals and the self-denial breakdowns because it was a big step to shield myself from the closest negative forces I have in my life. But here I am, welcoming the positive energy I need to make my mind run. Open to learn, open to adapt and open to educate. [Enter] The Positive forces.

Selfictionary

The world is filled with stories about people, all kinds of people. We read and understand so much about all kinds of people. Some of who are associated with us and some who comprise the rest of the world. Can we summarize their personality in a list of words? Or even better, can we summarize ourselves in a list of words I call a ‘selfictionary’. Let’s try.

Here is a take on myself –

  • Independent
  • Doer
  • Adaptable
  • Reader
  • Procrastinator
  • Selectively obsessive
  • Passionate
  • Compassionate
  • Lover
  • Egoistic
  • Broadcaster
  • Analyst
  • Meticulous

Pingback your selfictionary. Let’s explore the personalities.

Sing to the world: I am strong

I stand by the sea, alone, on a breezy day and I sing, I am strong.

You feel the weakest when you lose yourself. Having been through the worst in life puts you in a bottle with a stopper sucked in with all the vacuum. You can imagine this space – nothing moving around you, nobody around you. It sucks. Believe me, it does.

Our mind speaks with experience only. And so, you feel like this is the end. That you will never be able to get out of that bottle. This is not true. Again, believe me, it’s not.

The bottle is just one of the many rat traps we get stuck with in life. Like all those times you have found yourself hit a dead end and you have found a way out, this too shall pass. There is nothing stronger than your mind to get you back up. You have the power to sing your way out of the situation. To sing your mind louder than you thought you could and shatter those boundaries into pieces. To concentrate all that energy within you into a singularity. To blast your way out of those shackles and free yourself from your own chains. To rid yourself from the rigid conventional ways of this world. To accept your life and recognise your own strength.

There is no one stronger than you. There is nothing stronger than your own mind.

 

This is where I begin

At first I thought I need to be really good at this. But then I realised that may be it’s not about how well you write but how expressive your mind is. When my sister started blogging, at first I did not read any of her posts. Let’s just say I did not find the time to :). But when I finally sat down to read them, all I could see was her mind and soul poured all over the place. This intrigued me. And I thought to myself that when I finally find the time and space to do it, I will write. And here I am. Right at the starting point, taking deep breaths, as I embark on a journey to rediscover myself.

As selfish as it may sound, I think I want to write because I want to hear myself. It’s been on my mind for some days now. Post marriage, something suddenly starts to change you. Well this change could also have been triggered by the tearing hours of job hunting, mundane hours of cleaning and engaging hours of cooking (all of the above is when you get married to someone living in another country for whom you have left everything behind, of course). With all the time at hand, it’s almost unavoidable for all those thoughts to cross your mind. It’s not like you can shut them away now, can you? So, last night, when my mind simply wandered away on one of its regular holidays I thought to myself, why not bring all of this together. Collate all my thoughts. Make them coherent. May be they mean something. Or may be not…?